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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-15 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ It takes him a moment to answer – apparently it's a difficult question she's asked him, because he frowns, hand shrinking back slightly. ]

Depends on what you want.

[ Which isn't very fair of him. She could've called him out here for any number of things, but the reason his imagination provides is one final cutting of ties. And if that's the case, he really shouldn't just disappear on her, should listen to what she has to say and dutifully comply, rather than clamp his hands over his ears and pretend she hadn't asked for him in the first place.

He breathes in slowly, then out (not that he actually breathes anymore, and drops his hand to his hip again. ]


You've got my attention.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-15 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ ... Of all the ways to start this conversation, that was a possibility that certainly hadn't crossed his mind.

His expression goes slack, and he stares at her, because he couldn't have possibly heard her right – not after everything they'd said to each other. This reprieve from his company had to have been a blessing, must have been a wild relief.

Except she goes on, and it's more difficult to tell himself he misheard her. He rocks back a little, not quite keeping the frown from his face – and it's more a look of confusion than anything. ]


I— I figured you wouldn't care to see me. Considerin'...

[ He waves a hand vaguely. ]

Considerin' what happened.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-15 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Somehow, everything she says just leaves him more bewildered, more surprised, because – there had been a quietness to the way she spoke to him during their argument. A calmness that reminded Faraday of someone stating dark, necessary little truths – unpleasant and difficult to hear, but honest all the same.

He was a contemptible man, whose presence Emma only tolerated out of necessity. A drunkard, a killer, a sinner, unchanged by his life or the end of it. Things he knew and knew well.

So hearing the facts fall from Emma's lips, with that emotionless stare and impassive voice – each word had torn through him like a bullet from a Gatling gun, but it had been true. He could hardly fault her for them, in the end, but hearing her say she missed him, despite his every fault, hearing her say she worried he wouldn't return—

... Well. He has no idea how to react.

For a long moment, Faraday stays silent, watching her, wondering if staring at her long enough might reveal the falsehood in her words, but he doesn't see it – the telltale twitches, the sharp, nervous glances away that signal a lie. She seems to be telling the truth, and all he can think, all he can finally blurt out is, ]


Why?

[ It falls from his lips before he can stop it, and he winces at himself, at how ungracefully he asked it. Too late to take it back, though, and he reluctantly presses forward. ]

I— I thought you'd be glad for my absence. Sounded like you should've been, anyway.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-15 07:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ For all the time he'd run over the argument, he'd also considered how their second round would go, if it ever came to it. He had imagined more yelling (from him) and more of those truths fired with pinpoint accuracy (from her), and the storm of his rage would meet the calm of hers, until the two of them finally ricocheted off one another, separated at last.

He never imagined this: him, standing in stunned confusion. Emma – a woman he had known to be steadfast and sure, relentless and determined when she took a stance – to look at him so uncertainly, to struggle with what to say, when he had almost constantly seen her fire words back at a man as if they were always chambered and always at the ready.

This is— this is unexpected.

Faraday bows his head, examines the wooden floorboards beneath his feet, and he takes a deep, fortifying breath. ]


You weren't wrong, though. On any particular account.

[ He pauses, swallows down the flare of guilt, before he pushes on. ]

Things I said to you, though. [ Hesitant, as though he's picking his words carefully. ] I didn't— I didn't mean any of it. Just meant for it to hurt, I suppose. But I didn't— I don't actually think any of that.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-15 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He watches her again, listens to her words, tries to pick out the tells for a bluff. Shifty eyes or a nervous posture or too wide eyes that tried too hard to pass for innocence. Emma offers none of that, though, reads to him as someone struggling beyond their depths, unused to admitting fault or— unused to swallowing their pride, maybe.

Faraday can hardly blame her for that, truth be told. He's hardly well-versed in any of those cases, himself. So he appreciates how damned difficult it must be, because he's feeling that same struggle – the need to hold back, to curl up around the remaining shreds of his dignity, even as he knows the state of his pride will mean squat if it means the end of this—

... friendship?

What an odd thought, but Faraday can't deny the truth of it. The two of them are friends, or at least Faraday considers Emma to be as such; part of him thinks the feeling might actually be mutual, after everything she's just said, and he doesn't have words for the way it had soothed his nerves. For as amiable as Faraday can be, as easygoing and as talkative as he is, he has very few actual friends. Even less, now, considering he's given up the ghost.

(In a manner of speaking.)

He can't quite dredge up a proper response to her words, to the kindness in them, and he's relieved when she saves him from answering by holding out his cards. Slowly, he reaches for them, pausing just shy of taking them. Part of him thinks he doesn't deserve them just yet, because he hasn't quite said his part, has he? Seems unfair, all things considered, for Emma to swallow her pride when he has yet to do the same.

He swallows thickly, and in a voice that's only a hair above a whisper, ]


... I'm sorry.

[ He licks his lips, drags his gaze up to look at her. ]

About— all of it. The dirty trick with the man's horse. The way I acted. The awful things I said. I'm— I'm sorry.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-15 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ If he had breath in his lungs still, what she says would have stolen them away. Her apology sweeps away his worry, floods him with an unfamiliar sense of comfort, and some of the tenseness leaves the set of his shoulders.

She continues on, though, and his lips draw into a thin, solemn line. You're a good man, she says, but a part of him flinches away from the words, senses an inherent lie in them, even if she says them with the sort of straightforward honesty he's come to expect from her.

His jaw clenches, and he has nothing to say in return. Thankfully, her apology for slapping him drains the tension away again, and he huffs out a quiet chuckle, shaking his head. His hand lifts to touch his cheek, still remembering the shock of pain. ]


No, that was fine. I reckon that was the least I deserved.

[ He hesitates again as he reaches over to the cards. His fingers wrap around the deck, his thumb resting on the top card, and the roughness of the paper, of the cards' edges, against his hand makes him smile slightly, unconsciously. He falls quiet for a second, then, with his eyes narrowing slightly, ]

Were you really gonna drop these in the fire?
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-16 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ He huffs out another quiet laugh, ducking his head to turn the cards over in his hands when she releases them. His thumb runs over the short edge of the deck, and he takes a second to marvel over how strange it is, that he can feel each card falling against the pad of his thumb as he riffles them. Faraday misses the examination she's giving him in favor of looking at his cards, misses the open curiosity in her eyes—

— but doesn't miss the way her finger pokes into the meat of his shoulder. Not through.

Faraday freezes, eyes darting up to meet hers. In their week apart, he hadn't tested it, whatever it is that's allowed him to touch and feel again. Before, he just had an innate sense for grasping and holding things; now, it's the same as when he was alive, feeling every imperfection beneath his hands. For a bit, he had thought it was a fluke – and still did, actually, until just then.

For a long second, he can only blink. Then, in a hollow sort of voice, ]


That was uncalled for.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-16 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's not sure what it is – her open shock or his own, or the stunned way she pulls back, like he's suddenly grown a second head, but it's enough to make him smile a little – a strange mix of discomfort and amusement warring in the expression. ]

I should thank you for not just smacking me again, I suppose.

[ And despite the dryness in his voice, he is genuinely grateful she hasn't slapped him. He'd rather not repeat that any time soon, mild as the pain was.

Her question, earns a bit of a frown – thoughtful, more than upset, and he answers slowly, ]


I think it has.

[ He could describe how his sense of touch has returned, how he can feel textures and heat and cold, but clever though he his, he's never quite been one for words. A man of action, he likes to consider himself, so rather than describe what little he's explored over the course of the week, he finds an easier way to do it.

He takes the top card from the deck – a two of hearts – and reveals it to her. ]


Watch.

[ —as if she would do anything but. He places the card face down into the deck, giving it a quick, easy overhand shuffle. With the deck in one hand and between his fingers, he splits the deck with his thumb, twisting the top half of the cards away, pushing out a card from the middle. He flicks it out and away, the card spinning through the air, before he catches it with his right hand.

He holds the two of hearts between two fingers and grins. ]


Couldn't manage that one before.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-17 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her praise, slight as it is, makes him smile as he shuffles the two back into the deck. The use of the title still rankles a little, though it's nowhere near as bad as the early days, when it was used in well-meaning earnest, nor is it as bad as the other day, when she had used it like a knife, with a kind of precision that would've made even the late Billy Rocks proud.

Faraday lets it slide, save for the slightest pursing of his lips and narrowing of his eyes. He knows now she means it as a sort of pet name, something to get a slight rise out of him, which is a little amusing, he supposes. ]


Seems to be the case.

[ A mild little agreement. He falls quiet for a second, shifting his weight from one leg to the other, then, ]

... So. You'n'me.

[ He keeps his gaze fixed on the cards in his hands as he mixes them together, keeps his voice quiet, as if he's afraid to break the peace that's fallen between them. ]

We're— alright, then?
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2016-10-17 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ His eyebrows rise a little at her request, caught off-guard. But— she had admitted it earlier, hadn't she? That she had missed him, that she had actually been afraid he wouldn't return, and—

And he's not sure how to feel on that, still. Not sure why that little tendril of warmth unfurls in his chest again when she says it &ndash familiar, in that he seems to only feel it with her. Unfamiliar, in that it's not exactly a sensation he's had before his passing.

When he looks up, Emma is already stepping away, and he breathes out a quiet little laugh. She wants the last word on this discussion, it seems, and— well, normally Faraday would have something to say, just to be an ass. But considering the last time he was an ass, it had nearly ruined everything...

Well, better to let that conversation slip away. He just smiles a little to himself, dropping the deck off on a table. ]


You need a hand?