[ A man with no need to sleep suffers no nightmares.
It’s a blessing, maybe. It’s one of the few good things to come out of this – that Faraday no longer sleeps and no longer dreams of blood and death. And logically speaking, it makes sense – he can’t be haunted by his old ghosts if he is one, himself.
So when the rest of the world sleeps, Faraday drifts. Wanders through the town, sometimes, taking a look at the differences all of these months have made, marks out the spots he remembers. There, where he sat with some of the town’s children, showing them magic trick after magic trick until work called him back. There, where he blew up a shed. There, where Vasquez had killed one of Bogue’s men in Faraday’s name – the man who had shot him, who had killed him slowly.
Sometimes, he blinks out of existence, goes wherever it is he goes to rest – like he’s in a separate room watching the world from a window. Aware, but not present. Like falling into a daze and waiting to be roused.
And other times, he waits around, sits in Emma’s kitchen with a deck of cards with the light of the moon to accompany him. Practice, in a way. Strengthening. Shuffling the deck with a quiet focus, like he’s learning the skill all over again – because he is. In life, manipulating the cards came as easy as breathing, but it had taken years of practice to get there. And now, slightly removed from existence as he is, it takes concentration to grasp the cards, to cut and twist the deck. Sometimes, when he loses focus, it becomes a game of fifty-two card pick up, and he grunts in frustration as he kneels down to fix his mess.
A cry pierces the silence of the house, and the cards fall through his fingers – a small, contained mess on the kitchen table. And normally Faraday would throw his hands up, frustrated to the point of banging his head against a wall, except he’s no longer there.
He appears in Emma’s room with hardly a thought. ]
Emma. Hey, Emma—
[ He steps forward, reaches out a hand to wake her – remembers what he is, and flinches back. She described it to him once, how it felt to pass through him. Like getting doused in ice water. Like feeling something crawl up your spine.
That… probably won’t help.
It’s a bad one tonight, he thinks helplessly, hovering beside her as she tosses and turns. It’s nights like these that he hates what he is, because he can’t simply just touch her, put a hand on her shoulder and end the dream with a gentle shake. He winces when she cries out again, moves forward to sit on the edge of the bed.
[ he's on the periphery of her consciousness, just barely there. his voice cuts through the fog of gut-wrenching memories, and with the way he says her name, she starts to pull away from the flash of images, the smell of smoke, and the cracks of rifles.
matthew's body melts away before her eyes, and the shocked faces of slain men follow suit, leaving her to tug towards reality, towards the sound of faraday's words.
her name. she picks out her name.
it's just a dream.
is it?
it must be.
matthew died months ago, she killed these men months ago, and faraday...
...faraday is here somehow.
her eyes suddenly snap open, momentarily unseeing until she registers faraday sitting on the bed, and she's so startled that she just bolts upright, scrambles back on the bed as she stares at faraday, like she's seen a ghost.
and, well.
she has. in her dreams, she'd been watching him die all over again, but here he was, looking at her with concern. when her mind starts to catch up, she realizes that he saw whatever must have been happening while she was trapped in the throes of her nightmares.
oh, hell. ]
...Joshua.
[ she exhales slowly, shakily, before pressing her hands to her face, pushing away her wild, tangled mess of red hair. she hadn't braided it when she went to sleep, and with how she'd been tossing and turning, it had done a number on her hair. ]
I'm—
[ she stops, shaking her head. ]
Was I...m-makin' some kind of ruckus?
[ dear god, she hopes not (but realistically, she knows there can't have been another reason for him to look so worried or be here waking her). ]
[ When she scrambles away, Faraday rocks back, both hands up to look as unthreatening as possible. With the way she panics, he wouldn’t have been surprised if she had tried to throw something or tried to land a blow – neither of which would have had an effect, but it would’ve been startling for them both, all the same.
He ought to try to soothe her, try to be reassuring or flash her a smile, but— that was bad, what he just witnessed. Reminded him of his own nightmares. And all he can manage is a quiet frown, a worried sort of look. When she remembers where she is and seems to calm a little, he drops his hands to his lap. Faraday waits for the sleep to leave her, for her to gather her wits enough to speak. Once she does – and there’s his name again; one of these days, he’ll stop pausing in confusion at it – he tries to smile a little. ]
You were makin’ enough noise fit to rouse the dead.
[ Yes, he’s making a ghost joke, as he occasionally does. It’s in poor taste, every time.
But the smile fades, and he watches her with undisguised concern. ]
[ emma only barely manages to give him a disapproving look from behind her fingers, a little frown to demonstrate that his joke isn't especially funny — which ghost cracks rarely are, but especially not right now.
revisiting so much death has hardly put her into the mood for black humor.
she looks away from his face, down to her hands because she can't quite handle seeing him look so worried for her. she hates making anyone fret, but over something like this? showing this kind of weakness?
god, she feels absurd. ]
Fine. I'm—
[ she cuts herself off, taking a deep breath to try and shake off some of the unsteadiness, try to look far more composed than she feels. ]
I'm fine. Just not— the most restful night's sleep.
[ Her disapproving look is met with a helpless little smile and shrug, as if he’s trying to say, I couldn’t help it.
He waits again as she tries to compose herself, gives her time to catch her breath, doesn’t push her to speak or demand answers. Faraday almost never had company whenever he woke from his nightmares, but he remembers thinking how much he wished he had someone there with him. He remembers how disgustingly lonely it could be, sitting in the dark with the shadows still flitting around in his head, lying in wait. And maybe he didn’t want to talk about it, and maybe he didn’t want their pity, but just having someone there would have helped.
(And he had someone there for him exactly once, in the night before his death. Emma, keeping him company on a sleepless night, throwing back whiskey and distracting him from his demons.
It had been… it had been a relief, if he’s honest.) ]
Nothin’ to be sorry for. Didn’t bother me none.
[ He says it honestly with another small shrug, because he has a vague idea of how she is, how she doesn’t like making people worry. Doesn’t like being a burden, proud woman that she is.
They say the nightmares never go away, he had told her. A warning, really, a word of caution, though not to deter her from the battle. Faraday knew almost from the start that Emma belonged with the rest of the men, fighting Rose Creek’s fight, but he also knows actions have consequences. He know that once someone starts dealing in lead, it tends to haunt them.
In this case, he doesn’t like being right.
He shifts a little where he sits, unsure of how to proceed. A little awkwardly, ]
[ emma feels nearly halted by the question. does she need anything?
well, certainly, she needs something, she decides, something to chase off the leftover demons in her mind, the echoes of screams and gunfire that try to flicker back when she isn't focusing so intensely. she presses a hand to her forehead again to hide a wince at a particularly vivid flash, almost like the dark of the room is still amplifying the adrenaline pumping through her as her heart hammers against her ribcage. she needs to calm down, and she knows it, but she feels so ungodly shaken by it all.
this...this was rough.
she needs to not think about it, she decides, but she also needs to not be alone with her thoughts. if matthew was still alive, this would be easy: a hug, some kisses and soft words, and she could at least feel safe again, but it's so achingly hard to comfort herself in a meaningful way now.
swallowing around the lump in her throat, emma tries for a steady voice, tries not to let a quaver give her away. ]
Would you—
[ she feels so foolish asking, and it takes a whole host of courage to buck up the nerve to finish her sentence: ]
—would you mind terribly stayin'?
[ she can't look at him when she asks, because it feels like she's exposing too much of herself, almost. ]
[ Faraday wasn’t sure what he expected from his question. Maybe something concrete he could do, like fetching her some water or preparing some coffee. Or maybe she would have waved him away, told him to give her some privacy while she sorted through her thoughts – which he would have done with reluctance, given that he’s reasonably sure the last thing she ought to be is alone.
But still, he hoped it would be something straightforward. Something simple.
Her actual request, though, makes him pause, but he nods all the same – slowly, and slightly unsure, but there it is. He even bites back his first inclination to make some joke, as he tends to do when he’s uncomfortable, because he knows how difficult that request must have been for her. He’s not sure, were their places switched, if he would’ve had the courage to do the same. ]
Yeah. [ Softly, as he dredges up a small smile. ] ‘Course. I can do that.
[ It’s the least he can do, even if he’s not entirely certain how much help he can be. Faraday is a talker, sure. He can spin tales and make people laugh until tears roll down their eyes. Comfort, though, is not something he has any practice in providing.
Easy things first, then. He stands from the bed, drifting over to light the lantern. He adjusts the wick, sets the light low – just enough to push back the dark. He doesn’t need the light, himself; he found he could see just as well in the dark as he does in the day. Still, he found a bit of light always helped him to pull himself out of his dreams. Maybe the same will help Emma.
With his attention on the little flickering flame, he says softly, ]
You don’t gotta talk about it none, if you don’t want, but—
[ the slight brightening in the room is a welcome change, one she wishes she'd thought to do herself, but...she feels rooted in place on the bed (partially because she's concerned that if she tried to get to her feet, her knees would just give out from under her). staying put feels like the right choice now, even if she's slightly mortified that she actually asked faraday to stay.
a moment of weakness, it truly was, but she's distantly grateful that she did. she needs...something. company, certainly, maybe not someone to talk to, but someone to be here with her.
because talking about her fears, about these weaknesses as she sees them, is not something she's all that eager to do. but at least— he's not pushing her to talk.
this opening up, this vulnerability? she's not good at it, never has been.
drawing her legs up to curl her knees against her chest, she just keeps watching him adjust the lamp, keeping a hand pressed to her forehead as she focuses on slow, steady breathing.
in, out. in, out. ]
Not...always.
[ sometimes. here and there, but not always. ]
Not every time.
[ small blessings. ]
When you have— yours...or...had— were they near so bad?
[ did they make him feel so trapped and helpless? were they so vividly violent and disturbing? she's not sure if she'll get another vague answer or something straightforward, but asking about his nightmares means she doesn't have to talk about her own. ]
[ He nods slowly at the answer. That’s something, at least, that they don’t often set her screaming and thrashing, like he’d just seen. Sometimes he happens to be nearby to pull her from a few bad dreams, hearing soft sounds that might be wordless protests, but he hasn’t seen it this bad before.
Part of him wonders what she saw this time as she slept, wonders if it’s Bogue’s vengeful spirit haunting her. He doesn’t ask, though; he figures it’s too fresh in her mind to talk comfortably about it.
With the lamp lit, he wanders back to her bed, sits down on its edge and turns slightly to face her. (The mattress doesn’t dip; the blankets don’t give way to leave an impression.) Her question gives him pause, and— shockingly, he doesn’t feel that old spur in his side at the thought of his old nightmares, or that dizzying feeling of vertigo, like he’s standing on the edge of some dark precipice.
Death must have given him some much needed perspective, perhaps, because the idea of speaking about them, of bringing them into the light, isn’t as terrifying as it might have been all those months ago. Before, the idea of talking about it felt akin to dragging a monster out into the open, made it feel like he was baring his throat to let it dig in its teeth.
Now, though, it feels like a far-off, unpleasant memory. They haven’t plagued him in so long, those nightmares, and the distance feels safer, somehow. So he parrots back simply, quietly, ]
Not always. Not every time.
[ His mouth draws into a thin line, and he tips his head back to inspect the ceiling. ]
But sometimes, they were… bad. Real bad. And felt real enough that sometimes, I thought they would surely follow me out into the daylight.
[ He breathes out a rueful little laugh, looking over to her again. ]
Never did though, thank God, though I’m certain they were sorely tempted to.
[ emma's hit with an odd sense of relief when faraday settles back onto the bed with her, just sitting on the edge; he's close, but not too close, and for now that's...that's enough. she's not alone, which has been one of the absolute worst parts of losing matthew — she's had no one there with her to help her cope with these nights, the bad ones, and though she's determined to make it through on her own, that she doesn't need anyone because of how damn proud she is...
sometimes, she needs someone, and it's just plain harder to force herself through these nights pretending that she's fine. she's always appreciated the times faraday has woken her from less serious dreams, because she knows that it's been obvious when she's struggled, but...she's managed to keep him from witnessing this magnitude of night terror, and this has added a new level of reality to the seriousness of her nightmares.
she listens as he speaks, almost shocked that he's elaborating on the otherwise ignored concept. they were both vividly aware of the nightmares they each suffered, but they never delved into them, never talked about them, and she just keeps her eyes fixed on faraday, on his face. she takes in the way his lips move, the small changes in his expression, and the level of focus is soothing in its own odd way, like it gives her something to fixate on that doesn't happen to be the memories tugging at the back of her mind. she worries that if she sleeps again now, she'll just drop right back into the nightmares with little to no reprieve, and she can't face that yet.
not yet. ]
They do feel— so awfully real.
[ it's a quiet admission, and she can't quite look faraday in the eyes when she says it, even if he's also just copped to it. ]
Like I can't get away, and I just— I don't rightfully know what I ought to do.
[ she slides her hand up into her hair, letting her forehead fall against her knees. she feels helpless with these nightmares, because she has no control of them, no control of what her mind forces her to relive, and it's driving her to these miserable nights that often end with her staying awake until morning. ]
[ He winces at her admission, at the way she folds in on herself. It’s all too familiar, really, and something he grappled with without success for years before Chisolm dragged him along to Rose Creek. The dreams always came, no matter how much he ran, no matter how much he drank, no matter how much he staved off sleep.
Now, he has some form of peace, and as terrible as his nightmares were, they no longer plague him; but he can’t exactly offer “try dying” as a valid form of advice. Faraday may be a fool, but he’s not that much of a bastard to make a joke like that. ]
Wish I knew, myself.
[ And there’s a touch of regret in his voice. Emma has been kind to him for ages now, despite his tricks, despite his purposeful attempts at being infuriating, despite the two of them not being the best of friends in life. She’s suffered his presence with surprising aplomb, and naturally, when it comes time for him to return the favor in some meaningful way, he comes up short.
Isn’t that just the way? ]
Never really could shake ‘em. Tried my damnedest, though. Ran and ran and ran, but they always caught up.
[ He pauses, tries for another little smile, even if she isn’t looking his way. ]
[ faraday's words aren't the most reassuring, because it's a bit difficult hearing affirmation that this will never go away, and his coping mechanisms obviously hadn't solved the problem much at all. he'd lived with those nightmares for so much of his life, until now, in death, he had some semblance of peace for them.
much as emma struggled, she wasn't looking to die just yet. she spends so much of her time with a dead man, but she's still so tied to the world of the living, thank you kindly.
she gives a quiet, humorless laugh before lifting her head, leaning it back against the wall so she can stare at the ceiling. ]
I doubt I'd be much good at runnin' your way, anyhow.
[ she's not one to drown her demons in spirits, and, realistically, she knows that leaving rose creek won't chase off the nightmares any more than staying might.
she tips her chin to finally look back at faraday, her eyes holding that fierceness that's so entirely emma, but it's almost hollow, filled with exhaustion and the flickers of old ghosts instead of her usual fire. the nightmares stifle a part of her, because emma just does not do well feeling like she's lost. she needs to know where she stands, how to fix things, herself included, but these nightmares strike such a primal nerve inside of her that she can't grasp a solution.
she can't fix herself.
she keeps staring at him for a drawnout moment, and then a flash of an idea hit hers. she sits forward, sticking out her hand to him with determination. ]
Touch me.
[ it's a demand, leaving little room to question. the way he moves right through her when they make contact, it's so startling and cold and she reckons that that may startle her out of this exhaustion just enough that she won't be tempted to try closing her eyes all over again.
if it'll keep her awake, then the unpleasantness is worth it. that, or actually splash herself with ice water. ]
[ He sees the hollow sort of determination in her eyes, and feels a twinge of sympathy. That look reminds him of betting it all in a hand of poker, already knowing you've lost. It's like looking down the barrel of a gun.
It's not a look that suits her, and he wishes he could do something to take it away.
And then she keeps staring, watching him, and the attention unnerves him, in a way. Like a hawk staring into a field, looking for prey. He can practically hear the gears turning in her head as she formulates some idea, and he has a brief second to wonder, Why do I get the feelin' I won't like this?
He was right, in a way.
Because when she moves forward, reaches out for him, he shifts back on instinct. He laughs a little, more out of unease than finding anything particularly humorous. ]
You hate when I touch you.
[ He says it like he's delivering a fact, like he's reminding her the sky is blue, rather than in an accusatory way. Emma has never said it so explicitly, but she had told him how it felt when she accidentally fell through him – it hardly sounded enjoyable. And eagle-eyed as he is, Faraday noticed the way she took pains to avoid coming into contact with him. ]
[ her gaze doesn't waver, and she doesn't pull her hand back at the pointed reminder. oh, she heartily dislikes the near unearthly sensations that come with touching faraday, especially on the one occasion her entire body fell right into him — through him — and left her feeling like she'd touched death itself, all freezing cold and prickling skin.
but what it did do was wake her the hell up. ]
That's the point.
[ she doesn't reach for him, because she's actually trying to be polite about this (even if she's asking for something fairly strange). ]
Faraday, I touch you and I am wide awake. I have no desire to let myself accidentally drift into those dreams again tonight, so if you would kindly oblige me and simply touch my hand, I'd be mighty grateful. But if not, I'll find myself some cold water and try to do just about the same.
[ icy water will wake her up, sure, and while it's the closest thing she can associate with touching a ghost, it's not nearly as effective at making every inch of her feel alert. ]
[ He frowns at that, mouth twisting a little to one side in displeasure. He's not sure why he's so hesitant to do this; it's a simple enough request, but the stark reminder of what he is, how unpleasant he is, leaves a sour taste in his mouth.
(If he could still taste, that is.)
But, well, Faraday is frequently the one bringing it up, making light of it (as was his way), so he supposes he should stop feeling put out about it. If what he is can be made useful, then it's more than he could've hoped for when he was simply a corpse buried in a pine box, six feet underground.
(... technically, he is still a corpse in box, deep beneath the earth.
He stops thinking on that near immediately.)
It's never been quite so terrible for Faraday, moving through folks – so long as it was only a brush of contact, something as minor as the grazing of shoulders. Moving through folks, though, or having them move through him – that tended to fill him with a brief sense of dread, like staring down a long, long drop, there and gone in a flash.
Warily, he lifts his own hand. He hesitates for a second, then forces some levity into his voice as he grumbles, ]
Just so you'n'I are clear? This is likely the only time a woman has ever asked me to take her hand, and it's likely to be the only time I do it.
I just want you to appreciate that.
[ After that, he closes the distance, and rather than grasping her extended fingers, his hand passes through hers. It lasts for little more than a second, and he's quick to take his hand back, clenching it into a fist on his lap. ]
[ faraday's words actually startle emma, and she wishes she had more than a moment to react to what he's said, but then his hand is passing right through hers and her entire body seizes up.
there is it: that flash of desperate cold that she swears near freezes the blood in her veins, like her whole body has been dunked under a wintery lake, and despite the fact that it only lasts the briefest of moments, she's left wide-eyed and shivering.
well. she's sure awake now.
she pulls her hand back, gently gripping her arm and near hugging herself to ward off that flash of death her nerves seem to instinctively realize they've encountered. death and something not of this world: she supposes that's what faraday is, but it's only when she feels something like this that she remembers it.
she leans against the wall behind her bed, eyes far more alert as she looks at faraday now, some of those ghosts banished with her exhaustion. instead of a "thank you," she says instead: ]
You've– never been asked to hold a woman's hand before?
[ she feels a flicker of regret, then, that this is the manner in which he's held hers (if it could even be called that), and she's caught off guard by the odd ache in her chest that wishes she could have foregone the ghostly contact for something more substantial, like actually feeling faraday's hand on hers again.
(in better circumstances, maybe, than on the hill as he lay dying. she'd held his hand then, but that had been far different.)
[ The shift in the room is practically audible – one moment, quiet with dread. The next, chilled and tense, like stepping out in the dead of winter. Faraday drops his gaze, looks off into a corner of the room to avoid looking at Emma.
(Because he knows what he'll see on her face, that look of wide-eyed fear, that reminder of how wrong he is.)
He keeps his silence, waits for the coldness of death's touch – or whatever the hell he ought to call what he did – to pass. When she speaks, his gaze doesn't move, remains fixed on the shadowy little corner, and—
He barks out a laugh. Of all the things to ask, he thinks, that's the first that came to mind? What an odd woman, Emma Cullen. ]
It might surprise you to know, but I ain't exactly the courtin' type. Nor was most'a' the women I went with.
[ Probably an improper topic of conversation to have with a lady, but he merely shrugs. ]
Holdin' hands weren't exactly the first thing that came to mind.
[ she's glad to see faraday laugh in the aftermath of— that. the adamant way he looked away from her didn't leave a pleasant feeling in her gut, but she doesn't blame him. it's rare that these brutal reminders shake their time together, because despite faraday's casual cracks about his undead existence, it's still...easy to forget the reality.
she has the good grace to turn a little pink when he explains himself, but she shrugs it off dismissively. ]
I suppose that's a fair point.
[ from what she'd known of faraday before he'd died, she certainly wouldn't have expected him to be the kind of man to attempt courting a woman (not like matthew had been), so she supposes she understands, but...she'd greatly enjoyed that sort of simple contact from her husband; it's such a basic way to show affection, and there was something soothing about it. ]
But I wouldn't say that's the only time you'd held my hand — though by that count, neither circumstance has been especially ideal.
[ while he was dying or while he fades right through her: what strange moments, she decides, shaking the thought away.
reaching for her blankets, she gathers them up to wrap around her shoulders, bundle up a tad. the house itself is cold, on account of the fire burning far lower, and the leftover chills she feels from faraday's touch warrant the extra layers. tucking it all around herself, she watches him from her makeshift nest of bedclothes; she looks awake now, something she's grateful for, and she doesn't feel near as close to drifting off out of sheer exhaustion again. ]
[ He laughs again, though the sound doesn't quite approach mirthful; reminders of his last moments rarely elicit anything but a grim look, a slight creasing of his brow. Faraday will speak of most things with unnerving ease – including his state of nonexistence – but dying, feeling the life leave him bit by painful but, is still a dangerous topic.
They held hands then, yes, but not out of affection. It was desperation. It was fear. It was one final link to the living, a last-ditch attempt to anchor himself. ]
No, I wouldn't rightly say either instance has been what a person might call intimate.
[ Because that's what it is, really. Intimate. Something sweethearts do, something families do. People with softness in them. Faraday doesn't consider himself one of those people, covered in cactus needles and barbs as he is, all rough edges and sharp words.
He never felt he lacked for it, that intimacy. That familiarity. He also felt himself incapable of it.
He still thinks those things, even in death.
Thinks that, but when he glances up to see her bundling herself in her blankets, he frowns, half rises from where he sits. ]
emma scoffs slightly at the word, as if possibly defining either moment in such a way is absurd to her.
by no stretch of the imagination would she call either instance "intimate," but she finds a strange sense of similarity in seeking an anchor out of the contact. he'd clung to her hand like it was the only rock in an ortherwise brutal, unrepentant storm, and emma had sought means by which to ground herself, even if that had been in faraday's touch (or lack thereof). unpleasant as the sensation may have been, it had given her an anchor of her own, forcefully rooting her in the reality of the moment because now? she didn't feel the same tug of her nightmares; the forceful drag of sleep is momentarily gone, and she knows it's her body's way of responding to something that it can't understand.
but that's rightfully better than drifting off without meaning to and spending hours more in bright and hellish dreams. it may not be death that she seeks to tether herself from, but faraday had provided a much needed anchor to the waking world, and she's beyond grateful for it.
as he starts to rise, she nods, resting her chin on her knees. ]
I'd be much obliged if you'd see to it.
[ she appreciates it, because she still doesn't feel that she's ready to get her feet under her. she glances towards his face again, her expression not quite troubled, but thoughtful. ]
Also.
[ she hesitates, then sighs softly. ]
I apologize if I overstepped my bounds asking that of you - to touch me, I mean.
[ it had helped, certainly, but she'd seen the look on his face, knew that the reminder of what he is was not a pleasant one. ]
[ He nods as he stands. Stoking the fire is easy enough, by now, and takes much less concentration than it did before. Practice makes perfect, he supposes, and with the colder weather setting in, he's had a decent amount of practice. Might as well make himself useful, after all, when he offers little with his presence.
He feels the expectant weight of her gaze on him, though, and he pauses, waits for her to say whatever is still on her mind. An apology hadn't been what he was expecting, and for a second, he pauses, looks down at the wooden floor to collect his thoughts. ]
'S fine.
[ is what he decides on. Assuming one uses a very loose definition for the word "fine." There was a lot wrong with his situation, but— he makes do. As he always has. As he always does.
He shrugs, tipping his head slightly to one side, as if to say, What can you do? ]
Let's not go makin' somethin' out of nothin', alright?
[ emma isn't sure she feels right continuing to push faraday for more of an acknowledgement than that. it's not fine, she can see that much from his posture, his tone, and the general fact of this existence. ]
Fair enough.
[ talking much about these sorts of situations isn't her forte, and she's far likelier to let it lie than continue prodding him — partially to avoid her own line of thoughts about the matter. it's still so surreal to have him effectively living with her ("living"), but ghost that he is, he's still more of a person than she'd otherwise have around her so often.
it's nice, she realizes, to not feel so alone (not that she'll admit that aloud to him). ]
Faraday.
[ she shifts forward, some of the blankets falling from around her shoulders as the room starts to warm. ]
Since I'm now fairly awake—
[incredibly awake. ]
—might I take you up on that offer to show me those trick shuffles of yours?
[ not so she can actually play poker or indulge of any of his other vices, but it's admittedly fascinating to watch his hands move with the cards.
(and it's also something to keep her busy while it's still the dead of night.) ]
[ He offers a puzzled sort of smile at the request, as he stokes the fire with the poker; he glances over long enough to ask, ]
Thought you said I wasn't havin' an influence on you?
[ But he offers no further argument as he sets the iron aside. His cards were left haphazardly on the table – more of a messy pile, considering the way they fell through his hands earlier – and he collects the cards, stacking them neatly. In a blink, he returns to her side, sitting on the edge of her bed again with the cards in his hands. Idly, he cuts the deck – nothing particularly fancy; just something to do with his hands. ]
You mean to go into the fine business of hustlin', Miss Emma?
[ emma has started to adjust to his quick reappearances, barely jolting when he popped back up at the side of her bed. her lips twitch into a bit of amusement, and she straightens, folding her knees underneath her and making sure her shift is properly adjusted before she refocuses on what faraday does with his hands. ]
Mister Faraday, you know all too well I've no need for that sort of business — and I would hardly measure card shufflin' as an influence.
[ she tacks the "mister" on as a means of teasing him, these days, less so out of propriety. ]
But I've always been awful fascinated by the way you move the cards.
[ it's impressive, no matter what he uses it for, and what better way to while away the dark evening hours than practicing a skill? she certainly can't go out to shoot, after all, so this is something, and it's something that includes faraday. ]
[ It's easier to stomach the title when she knows she's just trying to get a rise out of him, and he answers it with a smirk. ]
Never know till you try. You might find you have a knack for it.
[ It takes a little more focus now than it did before. Simple actions – lifting, pushing, pulling – come easier now with time and practice. Acts of dexterity, though, of fine little movements and adjustments, have been a little more difficult.
But he's been practicing that, too, when the world is asleep and he has time to himself. He holds the deck in his hand, lifts the top card to reveal the suicide king, the King of Hearts, whose sword runs straight through his head. Faraday flips it back over atop the deck, hiding it among the rest, then cuts it in half and riffles the halves together. The cards bridge into a single deck after that, the paper snapping softly as the cards move back into place. Another cut in half, then he cuts the deck into three parts, moves them around in his hands until he arranges them neatly into a stack. He flicks the top card over onto the bed.
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it is beautiful is what it is
It’s a blessing, maybe. It’s one of the few good things to come out of this – that Faraday no longer sleeps and no longer dreams of blood and death. And logically speaking, it makes sense – he can’t be haunted by his old ghosts if he is one, himself.
So when the rest of the world sleeps, Faraday drifts. Wanders through the town, sometimes, taking a look at the differences all of these months have made, marks out the spots he remembers. There, where he sat with some of the town’s children, showing them magic trick after magic trick until work called him back. There, where he blew up a shed. There, where Vasquez had killed one of Bogue’s men in Faraday’s name – the man who had shot him, who had killed him slowly.
Sometimes, he blinks out of existence, goes wherever it is he goes to rest – like he’s in a separate room watching the world from a window. Aware, but not present. Like falling into a daze and waiting to be roused.
And other times, he waits around, sits in Emma’s kitchen with a deck of cards with the light of the moon to accompany him. Practice, in a way. Strengthening. Shuffling the deck with a quiet focus, like he’s learning the skill all over again – because he is. In life, manipulating the cards came as easy as breathing, but it had taken years of practice to get there. And now, slightly removed from existence as he is, it takes concentration to grasp the cards, to cut and twist the deck. Sometimes, when he loses focus, it becomes a game of fifty-two card pick up, and he grunts in frustration as he kneels down to fix his mess.
A cry pierces the silence of the house, and the cards fall through his fingers – a small, contained mess on the kitchen table. And normally Faraday would throw his hands up, frustrated to the point of banging his head against a wall, except he’s no longer there.
He appears in Emma’s room with hardly a thought. ]
Emma. Hey, Emma—
[ He steps forward, reaches out a hand to wake her – remembers what he is, and flinches back. She described it to him once, how it felt to pass through him. Like getting doused in ice water. Like feeling something crawl up your spine.
That… probably won’t help.
It’s a bad one tonight, he thinks helplessly, hovering beside her as she tosses and turns. It’s nights like these that he hates what he is, because he can’t simply just touch her, put a hand on her shoulder and end the dream with a gentle shake. He winces when she cries out again, moves forward to sit on the edge of the bed.
Tries again, uncertain, ]
Emma, wake up. It’s— it’s just a dream.
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matthew's body melts away before her eyes, and the shocked faces of slain men follow suit, leaving her to tug towards reality, towards the sound of faraday's words.
her name. she picks out her name.
it's just a dream.
is it?
it must be.
matthew died months ago, she killed these men months ago, and faraday...
...faraday is here somehow.
her eyes suddenly snap open, momentarily unseeing until she registers faraday sitting on the bed, and she's so startled that she just bolts upright, scrambles back on the bed as she stares at faraday, like she's seen a ghost.
and, well.
she has. in her dreams, she'd been watching him die all over again, but here he was, looking at her with concern. when her mind starts to catch up, she realizes that he saw whatever must have been happening while she was trapped in the throes of her nightmares.
oh, hell. ]
...Joshua.
[ she exhales slowly, shakily, before pressing her hands to her face, pushing away her wild, tangled mess of red hair. she hadn't braided it when she went to sleep, and with how she'd been tossing and turning, it had done a number on her hair. ]
I'm—
[ she stops, shaking her head. ]
Was I...m-makin' some kind of ruckus?
[ dear god, she hopes not (but realistically, she knows there can't have been another reason for him to look so worried or be here waking her). ]
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He ought to try to soothe her, try to be reassuring or flash her a smile, but— that was bad, what he just witnessed. Reminded him of his own nightmares. And all he can manage is a quiet frown, a worried sort of look. When she remembers where she is and seems to calm a little, he drops his hands to his lap. Faraday waits for the sleep to leave her, for her to gather her wits enough to speak. Once she does – and there’s his name again; one of these days, he’ll stop pausing in confusion at it – he tries to smile a little. ]
You were makin’ enough noise fit to rouse the dead.
[ Yes, he’s making a ghost joke, as he occasionally does. It’s in poor taste, every time.
But the smile fades, and he watches her with undisguised concern. ]
You alright?
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revisiting so much death has hardly put her into the mood for black humor.
she looks away from his face, down to her hands because she can't quite handle seeing him look so worried for her. she hates making anyone fret, but over something like this? showing this kind of weakness?
god, she feels absurd. ]
Fine. I'm—
[ she cuts herself off, taking a deep breath to try and shake off some of the unsteadiness, try to look far more composed than she feels. ]
I'm fine. Just not— the most restful night's sleep.
[ putting it mildly. ]
I'm sorry for disturbing you.
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He waits again as she tries to compose herself, gives her time to catch her breath, doesn’t push her to speak or demand answers. Faraday almost never had company whenever he woke from his nightmares, but he remembers thinking how much he wished he had someone there with him. He remembers how disgustingly lonely it could be, sitting in the dark with the shadows still flitting around in his head, lying in wait. And maybe he didn’t want to talk about it, and maybe he didn’t want their pity, but just having someone there would have helped.
(And he had someone there for him exactly once, in the night before his death. Emma, keeping him company on a sleepless night, throwing back whiskey and distracting him from his demons.
It had been… it had been a relief, if he’s honest.) ]
Nothin’ to be sorry for. Didn’t bother me none.
[ He says it honestly with another small shrug, because he has a vague idea of how she is, how she doesn’t like making people worry. Doesn’t like being a burden, proud woman that she is.
They say the nightmares never go away, he had told her. A warning, really, a word of caution, though not to deter her from the battle. Faraday knew almost from the start that Emma belonged with the rest of the men, fighting Rose Creek’s fight, but he also knows actions have consequences. He know that once someone starts dealing in lead, it tends to haunt them.
In this case, he doesn’t like being right.
He shifts a little where he sits, unsure of how to proceed. A little awkwardly, ]
You— you need anything?
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well, certainly, she needs something, she decides, something to chase off the leftover demons in her mind, the echoes of screams and gunfire that try to flicker back when she isn't focusing so intensely. she presses a hand to her forehead again to hide a wince at a particularly vivid flash, almost like the dark of the room is still amplifying the adrenaline pumping through her as her heart hammers against her ribcage. she needs to calm down, and she knows it, but she feels so ungodly shaken by it all.
this...this was rough.
she needs to not think about it, she decides, but she also needs to not be alone with her thoughts. if matthew was still alive, this would be easy: a hug, some kisses and soft words, and she could at least feel safe again, but it's so achingly hard to comfort herself in a meaningful way now.
swallowing around the lump in her throat, emma tries for a steady voice, tries not to let a quaver give her away. ]
Would you—
[ she feels so foolish asking, and it takes a whole host of courage to buck up the nerve to finish her sentence: ]
—would you mind terribly stayin'?
[ she can't look at him when she asks, because it feels like she's exposing too much of herself, almost. ]
Here with me, I mean.
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But still, he hoped it would be something straightforward. Something simple.
Her actual request, though, makes him pause, but he nods all the same – slowly, and slightly unsure, but there it is. He even bites back his first inclination to make some joke, as he tends to do when he’s uncomfortable, because he knows how difficult that request must have been for her. He’s not sure, were their places switched, if he would’ve had the courage to do the same. ]
Yeah. [ Softly, as he dredges up a small smile. ] ‘Course. I can do that.
[ It’s the least he can do, even if he’s not entirely certain how much help he can be. Faraday is a talker, sure. He can spin tales and make people laugh until tears roll down their eyes. Comfort, though, is not something he has any practice in providing.
Easy things first, then. He stands from the bed, drifting over to light the lantern. He adjusts the wick, sets the light low – just enough to push back the dark. He doesn’t need the light, himself; he found he could see just as well in the dark as he does in the day. Still, he found a bit of light always helped him to pull himself out of his dreams. Maybe the same will help Emma.
With his attention on the little flickering flame, he says softly, ]
You don’t gotta talk about it none, if you don’t want, but—
[ he pauses, risks a glance over. ]
‘S not usually that bad, is it?
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a moment of weakness, it truly was, but she's distantly grateful that she did. she needs...something. company, certainly, maybe not someone to talk to, but someone to be here with her.
because talking about her fears, about these weaknesses as she sees them, is not something she's all that eager to do. but at least— he's not pushing her to talk.
this opening up, this vulnerability? she's not good at it, never has been.
drawing her legs up to curl her knees against her chest, she just keeps watching him adjust the lamp, keeping a hand pressed to her forehead as she focuses on slow, steady breathing.
in, out. in, out. ]
Not...always.
[ sometimes. here and there, but not always. ]
Not every time.
[ small blessings. ]
When you have— yours...or...had— were they near so bad?
[ did they make him feel so trapped and helpless? were they so vividly violent and disturbing? she's not sure if she'll get another vague answer or something straightforward, but asking about his nightmares means she doesn't have to talk about her own. ]
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Part of him wonders what she saw this time as she slept, wonders if it’s Bogue’s vengeful spirit haunting her. He doesn’t ask, though; he figures it’s too fresh in her mind to talk comfortably about it.
With the lamp lit, he wanders back to her bed, sits down on its edge and turns slightly to face her. (The mattress doesn’t dip; the blankets don’t give way to leave an impression.) Her question gives him pause, and— shockingly, he doesn’t feel that old spur in his side at the thought of his old nightmares, or that dizzying feeling of vertigo, like he’s standing on the edge of some dark precipice.
Death must have given him some much needed perspective, perhaps, because the idea of speaking about them, of bringing them into the light, isn’t as terrifying as it might have been all those months ago. Before, the idea of talking about it felt akin to dragging a monster out into the open, made it feel like he was baring his throat to let it dig in its teeth.
Now, though, it feels like a far-off, unpleasant memory. They haven’t plagued him in so long, those nightmares, and the distance feels safer, somehow. So he parrots back simply, quietly, ]
Not always. Not every time.
[ His mouth draws into a thin line, and he tips his head back to inspect the ceiling. ]
But sometimes, they were… bad. Real bad. And felt real enough that sometimes, I thought they would surely follow me out into the daylight.
[ He breathes out a rueful little laugh, looking over to her again. ]
Never did though, thank God, though I’m certain they were sorely tempted to.
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sometimes, she needs someone, and it's just plain harder to force herself through these nights pretending that she's fine. she's always appreciated the times faraday has woken her from less serious dreams, because she knows that it's been obvious when she's struggled, but...she's managed to keep him from witnessing this magnitude of night terror, and this has added a new level of reality to the seriousness of her nightmares.
she listens as he speaks, almost shocked that he's elaborating on the otherwise ignored concept. they were both vividly aware of the nightmares they each suffered, but they never delved into them, never talked about them, and she just keeps her eyes fixed on faraday, on his face. she takes in the way his lips move, the small changes in his expression, and the level of focus is soothing in its own odd way, like it gives her something to fixate on that doesn't happen to be the memories tugging at the back of her mind. she worries that if she sleeps again now, she'll just drop right back into the nightmares with little to no reprieve, and she can't face that yet.
not yet. ]
They do feel— so awfully real.
[ it's a quiet admission, and she can't quite look faraday in the eyes when she says it, even if he's also just copped to it. ]
Like I can't get away, and I just— I don't rightfully know what I ought to do.
[ she slides her hand up into her hair, letting her forehead fall against her knees. she feels helpless with these nightmares, because she has no control of them, no control of what her mind forces her to relive, and it's driving her to these miserable nights that often end with her staying awake until morning. ]
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Now, he has some form of peace, and as terrible as his nightmares were, they no longer plague him; but he can’t exactly offer “try dying” as a valid form of advice. Faraday may be a fool, but he’s not that much of a bastard to make a joke like that. ]
Wish I knew, myself.
[ And there’s a touch of regret in his voice. Emma has been kind to him for ages now, despite his tricks, despite his purposeful attempts at being infuriating, despite the two of them not being the best of friends in life. She’s suffered his presence with surprising aplomb, and naturally, when it comes time for him to return the favor in some meaningful way, he comes up short.
Isn’t that just the way? ]
Never really could shake ‘em. Tried my damnedest, though. Ran and ran and ran, but they always caught up.
[ He pauses, tries for another little smile, even if she isn’t looking his way. ]
So I can at least suggest not tryin’ that.
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much as emma struggled, she wasn't looking to die just yet. she spends so much of her time with a dead man, but she's still so tied to the world of the living, thank you kindly.
she gives a quiet, humorless laugh before lifting her head, leaning it back against the wall so she can stare at the ceiling. ]
I doubt I'd be much good at runnin' your way, anyhow.
[ she's not one to drown her demons in spirits, and, realistically, she knows that leaving rose creek won't chase off the nightmares any more than staying might.
she tips her chin to finally look back at faraday, her eyes holding that fierceness that's so entirely emma, but it's almost hollow, filled with exhaustion and the flickers of old ghosts instead of her usual fire. the nightmares stifle a part of her, because emma just does not do well feeling like she's lost. she needs to know where she stands, how to fix things, herself included, but these nightmares strike such a primal nerve inside of her that she can't grasp a solution.
she can't fix herself.
she keeps staring at him for a drawnout moment, and then a flash of an idea hit hers. she sits forward, sticking out her hand to him with determination. ]
Touch me.
[ it's a demand, leaving little room to question. the way he moves right through her when they make contact, it's so startling and cold and she reckons that that may startle her out of this exhaustion just enough that she won't be tempted to try closing her eyes all over again.
if it'll keep her awake, then the unpleasantness is worth it. that, or actually splash herself with ice water. ]
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It's not a look that suits her, and he wishes he could do something to take it away.
And then she keeps staring, watching him, and the attention unnerves him, in a way. Like a hawk staring into a field, looking for prey. He can practically hear the gears turning in her head as she formulates some idea, and he has a brief second to wonder, Why do I get the feelin' I won't like this?
He was right, in a way.
Because when she moves forward, reaches out for him, he shifts back on instinct. He laughs a little, more out of unease than finding anything particularly humorous. ]
You hate when I touch you.
[ He says it like he's delivering a fact, like he's reminding her the sky is blue, rather than in an accusatory way. Emma has never said it so explicitly, but she had told him how it felt when she accidentally fell through him – it hardly sounded enjoyable. And eagle-eyed as he is, Faraday noticed the way she took pains to avoid coming into contact with him. ]
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but what it did do was wake her the hell up. ]
That's the point.
[ she doesn't reach for him, because she's actually trying to be polite about this (even if she's asking for something fairly strange). ]
Faraday, I touch you and I am wide awake. I have no desire to let myself accidentally drift into those dreams again tonight, so if you would kindly oblige me and simply touch my hand, I'd be mighty grateful. But if not, I'll find myself some cold water and try to do just about the same.
[ icy water will wake her up, sure, and while it's the closest thing she can associate with touching a ghost, it's not nearly as effective at making every inch of her feel alert. ]
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(If he could still taste, that is.)
But, well, Faraday is frequently the one bringing it up, making light of it (as was his way), so he supposes he should stop feeling put out about it. If what he is can be made useful, then it's more than he could've hoped for when he was simply a corpse buried in a pine box, six feet underground.
(... technically, he is still a corpse in box, deep beneath the earth.
He stops thinking on that near immediately.)
It's never been quite so terrible for Faraday, moving through folks – so long as it was only a brush of contact, something as minor as the grazing of shoulders. Moving through folks, though, or having them move through him – that tended to fill him with a brief sense of dread, like staring down a long, long drop, there and gone in a flash.
Warily, he lifts his own hand. He hesitates for a second, then forces some levity into his voice as he grumbles, ]
Just so you'n'I are clear? This is likely the only time a woman has ever asked me to take her hand, and it's likely to be the only time I do it.
I just want you to appreciate that.
[ After that, he closes the distance, and rather than grasping her extended fingers, his hand passes through hers. It lasts for little more than a second, and he's quick to take his hand back, clenching it into a fist on his lap. ]
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there is it: that flash of desperate cold that she swears near freezes the blood in her veins, like her whole body has been dunked under a wintery lake, and despite the fact that it only lasts the briefest of moments, she's left wide-eyed and shivering.
well. she's sure awake now.
she pulls her hand back, gently gripping her arm and near hugging herself to ward off that flash of death her nerves seem to instinctively realize they've encountered. death and something not of this world: she supposes that's what faraday is, but it's only when she feels something like this that she remembers it.
she leans against the wall behind her bed, eyes far more alert as she looks at faraday now, some of those ghosts banished with her exhaustion. instead of a "thank you," she says instead: ]
You've– never been asked to hold a woman's hand before?
[ she feels a flicker of regret, then, that this is the manner in which he's held hers (if it could even be called that), and she's caught off guard by the odd ache in her chest that wishes she could have foregone the ghostly contact for something more substantial, like actually feeling faraday's hand on hers again.
(in better circumstances, maybe, than on the hill as he lay dying. she'd held his hand then, but that had been far different.)
...what an odd impulse that sure is. ]
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(Because he knows what he'll see on her face, that look of wide-eyed fear, that reminder of how wrong he is.)
He keeps his silence, waits for the coldness of death's touch – or whatever the hell he ought to call what he did – to pass. When she speaks, his gaze doesn't move, remains fixed on the shadowy little corner, and—
He barks out a laugh. Of all the things to ask, he thinks, that's the first that came to mind? What an odd woman, Emma Cullen. ]
It might surprise you to know, but I ain't exactly the courtin' type. Nor was most'a' the women I went with.
[ Probably an improper topic of conversation to have with a lady, but he merely shrugs. ]
Holdin' hands weren't exactly the first thing that came to mind.
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she has the good grace to turn a little pink when he explains himself, but she shrugs it off dismissively. ]
I suppose that's a fair point.
[ from what she'd known of faraday before he'd died, she certainly wouldn't have expected him to be the kind of man to attempt courting a woman (not like matthew had been), so she supposes she understands, but...she'd greatly enjoyed that sort of simple contact from her husband; it's such a basic way to show affection, and there was something soothing about it. ]
But I wouldn't say that's the only time you'd held my hand — though by that count, neither circumstance has been especially ideal.
[ while he was dying or while he fades right through her: what strange moments, she decides, shaking the thought away.
reaching for her blankets, she gathers them up to wrap around her shoulders, bundle up a tad. the house itself is cold, on account of the fire burning far lower, and the leftover chills she feels from faraday's touch warrant the extra layers. tucking it all around herself, she watches him from her makeshift nest of bedclothes; she looks awake now, something she's grateful for, and she doesn't feel near as close to drifting off out of sheer exhaustion again. ]
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They held hands then, yes, but not out of affection. It was desperation. It was fear. It was one final link to the living, a last-ditch attempt to anchor himself. ]
No, I wouldn't rightly say either instance has been what a person might call intimate.
[ Because that's what it is, really. Intimate. Something sweethearts do, something families do. People with softness in them. Faraday doesn't consider himself one of those people, covered in cactus needles and barbs as he is, all rough edges and sharp words.
He never felt he lacked for it, that intimacy. That familiarity. He also felt himself incapable of it.
He still thinks those things, even in death.
Thinks that, but when he glances up to see her bundling herself in her blankets, he frowns, half rises from where he sits. ]
You want me to build up the fire for you?
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emma scoffs slightly at the word, as if possibly defining either moment in such a way is absurd to her.
by no stretch of the imagination would she call either instance "intimate," but she finds a strange sense of similarity in seeking an anchor out of the contact. he'd clung to her hand like it was the only rock in an ortherwise brutal, unrepentant storm, and emma had sought means by which to ground herself, even if that had been in faraday's touch (or lack thereof). unpleasant as the sensation may have been, it had given her an anchor of her own, forcefully rooting her in the reality of the moment because now? she didn't feel the same tug of her nightmares; the forceful drag of sleep is momentarily gone, and she knows it's her body's way of responding to something that it can't understand.
but that's rightfully better than drifting off without meaning to and spending hours more in bright and hellish dreams. it may not be death that she seeks to tether herself from, but faraday had provided a much needed anchor to the waking world, and she's beyond grateful for it.
as he starts to rise, she nods, resting her chin on her knees. ]
I'd be much obliged if you'd see to it.
[ she appreciates it, because she still doesn't feel that she's ready to get her feet under her. she glances towards his face again, her expression not quite troubled, but thoughtful. ]
Also.
[ she hesitates, then sighs softly. ]
I apologize if I overstepped my bounds asking that of you - to touch me, I mean.
[ it had helped, certainly, but she'd seen the look on his face, knew that the reminder of what he is was not a pleasant one. ]
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He feels the expectant weight of her gaze on him, though, and he pauses, waits for her to say whatever is still on her mind. An apology hadn't been what he was expecting, and for a second, he pauses, looks down at the wooden floor to collect his thoughts. ]
'S fine.
[ is what he decides on. Assuming one uses a very loose definition for the word "fine." There was a lot wrong with his situation, but— he makes do. As he always has. As he always does.
He shrugs, tipping his head slightly to one side, as if to say, What can you do? ]
Let's not go makin' somethin' out of nothin', alright?
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Fair enough.
[ talking much about these sorts of situations isn't her forte, and she's far likelier to let it lie than continue prodding him — partially to avoid her own line of thoughts about the matter. it's still so surreal to have him effectively living with her ("living"), but ghost that he is, he's still more of a person than she'd otherwise have around her so often.
it's nice, she realizes, to not feel so alone (not that she'll admit that aloud to him). ]
Faraday.
[ she shifts forward, some of the blankets falling from around her shoulders as the room starts to warm. ]
Since I'm now fairly awake—
[ incredibly awake. ]
—might I take you up on that offer to show me those trick shuffles of yours?
[ not so she can actually play poker or indulge of any of his other vices, but it's admittedly fascinating to watch his hands move with the cards.
(and it's also something to keep her busy while it's still the dead of night.) ]
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Thought you said I wasn't havin' an influence on you?
[ But he offers no further argument as he sets the iron aside. His cards were left haphazardly on the table – more of a messy pile, considering the way they fell through his hands earlier – and he collects the cards, stacking them neatly. In a blink, he returns to her side, sitting on the edge of her bed again with the cards in his hands. Idly, he cuts the deck – nothing particularly fancy; just something to do with his hands. ]
You mean to go into the fine business of hustlin', Miss Emma?
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Mister Faraday, you know all too well I've no need for that sort of business — and I would hardly measure card shufflin' as an influence.
[ she tacks the "mister" on as a means of teasing him, these days, less so out of propriety. ]
But I've always been awful fascinated by the way you move the cards.
[ it's impressive, no matter what he uses it for, and what better way to while away the dark evening hours than practicing a skill? she certainly can't go out to shoot, after all, so this is something, and it's something that includes faraday. ]
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Never know till you try. You might find you have a knack for it.
[ It takes a little more focus now than it did before. Simple actions – lifting, pushing, pulling – come easier now with time and practice. Acts of dexterity, though, of fine little movements and adjustments, have been a little more difficult.
But he's been practicing that, too, when the world is asleep and he has time to himself. He holds the deck in his hand, lifts the top card to reveal the suicide king, the King of Hearts, whose sword runs straight through his head. Faraday flips it back over atop the deck, hiding it among the rest, then cuts it in half and riffles the halves together. The cards bridge into a single deck after that, the paper snapping softly as the cards move back into place. Another cut in half, then he cuts the deck into three parts, moves them around in his hands until he arranges them neatly into a stack. He flicks the top card over onto the bed.
The suicide king, once again. ]
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