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[personal profile] peacemakers 2017-02-11 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ Now, Faraday thinks. I know that's bullshit.

And though he keeps the thought unvoiced, a bit of it shows in the narrowing of his eyes, the twist of his mouth.

He takes a breath – or at least, he appears to take a breath, though the air hardly seems to notice his efforts – in an effort to quell his annoyance. ]


Alright, then.

[ Low, quiet. ]

Assumin' what you're sayin' is true, assumin' Emma actually wants me here, then—

What is it you're tryin' to tell me, exactly? That I ought to help her— I dunno. Let go? Move on?
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2017-02-12 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ Faraday grimaces at that, grumbling, ]

That ain't much of an answer.

[ It's practically nothing, if he's honest. Which is probably why it's just as well he's not entirely convinced by Matthew's words, being bound here by Emma's desire. By her wanting him here; they'd become friendly with one another, sure, but he doubts it extends as far as Matthew seems to think it does.

Letting himself be bound by her, though – he can't argue that. ]


So? What would you do, then? Were you in my shoes.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2017-02-12 10:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ Faraday grows still as Matthew speaks, something cold and bitter sinking in his gut as he goes on.

None of these were thoughts that had ever occurred to Faraday, but then again, why would they? Faraday has always been a selfish man, has always considered his own needs first before anyone else's.

The reminder of that selfishness is enough to make him wince and bow his head.

He hadn't thought of any of this. Hadn't considered the great impacts it would have on Emma's life, should she ever return his affections – a fact that still feels impossible to Faraday, regardless of what Matthew might say. Even beyond who he is, Emma couldn't – shouldn't – love him because of what he is.

And that hurts even worse.

And what kind of bastard was he, really, that he hadn't ever considered Emma's well-being in all this?

He's silent for a long moment, regret winding through his gut, sour and burning like bile. His expression is caught in a scowl. ]


All the same, ain't it? It's as you say – not much of a life for her, with me hangin' around. Bein' what I am.

[ His lips press together in a grim line, hands tensing over his belt. ]

I ought to leave her alone, is what you're sayin'.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2017-02-13 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
[ He huffs out a breath, something still dismissive. He'll grant that there's definitely been a change in Emma's behavior – more than a few qualities coming to light that he had never seen before the fight.

Is it because of him, though, or is it merely because time and distance from the battle with Bogue has allowed more of that to surface?

Hard to tell, he supposes. Hard to say.

He murmurs, ]


In the end, it's all the same, don't you think? Still a dead man pinin' after a woman he don't deserve.

[ And there it is, out in the open at last, and he risks only a momentary glance up at the admission. For a long while, Faraday is quiet, before he shakes his head. ]

You're right. [ And that's difficult to say, someone else being right, because that so often means that Faraday is wrong. ] Suppose I ought to leave it alone. Let her move on. She don't need anymore ghosts hauntin' her.
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2017-02-13 06:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He huffs out a disbelieving laugh, dragging his gaze up to Matthew. ]

And how’s a man supposed to stop lovin’ someone?

[ Because the fact of the matter is, Faraday had thought it impossible to ever fall in love with someone in the first place. There’d been Ethel, all those years ago, but that hadn’t been real love. That had been an infatuation, a fleeting, warm sensation. He’d never met a woman like that before, and he had been smitten.

But this, what he feels for Emma – that was a dangerous blaze, compared to the spark he felt for Ethel, and he could no more douse that than he could put out a field on fire with a bucket of water. ]
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[personal profile] peacemakers 2017-02-13 08:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ A derisive little snort. ]

Wouldn’t be the first time she’s been sore with me.

[ Might be the last, though, if he plays his cards right.

Faraday lets out a sigh, reaching up to rub at his neck again. In life, he would’ve tried to knead out some of the stiffness knotting his muscles; now, it’s simply muscle memory. ]


I’ll... figure it out.